tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-75621066876680028462024-02-08T05:51:03.019-08:00Shubin NewsThe Shu'shttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07616764311972540928noreply@blogger.comBlogger13125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7562106687668002846.post-40918321320594757872009-01-12T11:51:00.000-08:002009-01-12T12:05:18.426-08:00Anticipation!!<strong>Where does the time go I cannot believe that it has been like 2 months since I last blogged... guess I am busier than I thought! Just a Shubin update... we are doing good Christmas was sooo much fun and relaxing with friends and family. We are so blessed and ofcourse it is a time to reflect on the best gift of all JESUS! Ok so you are probably wondering what the title of this blog is all about so let me get to the point:) We are waiting with anticipation for a medical grant specifically to do the invitro process. We have been going down the infertility road for like 3 years now and some of you know how hard it has been for us. At the end of all our testing we were told that invitro was the our best bet (they must not know the God I serve cause He does incredible miracles). Well we found out that the place that we were sent to for the invitro process is gifting away 20 free invitro cycles and we have a good chance of getting this. So why "anticipation" because they pick in February and waiting is so hard at times! I am also in anticipation to see all that God has in store for us regarding this! I know that Scripture clearly states that God wants to give us in His abundance of blessings!! Please stand with us in prayer over this as we truly believe that this is an answer to prayer! We love all of you and are blessed to call you friends!! </strong>The Shu'shttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07616764311972540928noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7562106687668002846.post-17821719736861264692008-11-06T12:10:00.000-08:002008-11-07T15:32:15.368-08:00Giving Thanks<strong>Why is it that our society totally skips over Thanksgiving? The day after Halloween the stores are setting up for Christmas. I love Christmas, but I also love Thanksgiving! I love the smell of the air, the color of the trees and just having a time to remember what I am thankful for and blessed with! I am such a blessed girl and my good friend/ pastor's wife Robin Fuller always reminds me when I am feeling sorry for myself to write out what I am thankful for! I find that when I do write them out, I have quite the list:-) Anyway I am not totally over the harvest season and refuse to decorate my house until December... so there!! The day after elections I got to thinking... election time is such a funny time because there are so many emotions wrapped up into it. No matter who you voted for and whether your <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">canidate</span> won or lost the truth of the matter is that we are visitors on this earth and that all of this will pass away! My God is still on the throne and very much aware of what is going on and what is to come. He is over all the kings of the land and He will use all things for His glory. So I am thankful first off to live in the best nation in the world, to have freedom to worship and pray to my Savior, to evangelize and talk about the gospel so freely, to have the right to vote and be apart of the making of history, and last but not least the power to be on my knees in prayer for the leaders that the Lord has placed over me and to watch the Lord at work!! That is only a few things that I am thankful for... I could go on and on but I don't want to bore you :-)</strong> <strong>Here is one of my most favorite and encouraging psalms...<br /></strong><div align="center"><span style="color:#ff9900;"><strong></strong></span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ff9900;"><strong></strong></span> </div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ff9900;"><strong>"Come, everyone, and clap your hands for joy! Shout to God with joyful praise! For the LORD Most High is awesome. He is the great King of all the earth. He subdues the nations before us, putting our enemies beneath our feet. He chose the Promised Land as our inheritance, the proud possession of Jacob's descendants, whom he loves. God has ascended with a mighty shout. The Lord has ascended with trumpets blaring. Sing praise to God, sing praises; sing praise to our King, sing praises! For God is the King over all the earth. Praise him with a psalm!God reigns above the nations, sitting on his holy throne. The rulers of the world have gathered together. They join us in praising the God of Abraham. For all the kings of the earth belong to God. He is highly honored everywhere. " </strong></span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ff9900;"><strong>Psalm 47: 1-9</strong></span></div><div align="center"></div>The Shu'shttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07616764311972540928noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7562106687668002846.post-27399982807168773862008-10-24T13:53:00.000-07:002008-10-24T14:02:29.438-07:00Ouch Report!<strong>Ahh the days when I used to teach pre-school and had to fill out ouch reports. Like if a child was bit, skinned their knee, ect... Well today I not only got an owie, but was totally embarrassed!! Mind you I work with Junior Highers so imagine. So I am walking out of the teacher's lounge going to class talking with some of my favorite girls and one decides to stop right in front of me. I tried to stop but tripped over her foot and fell hard on my knees, how embarrassing is that totally felt like a DORK and looking around to see who is looking! Oh ya all the students lunch just got over so yah for me. My students were awesome no one laughed instead they ran over to help me up or see if I was ok, yes even the "cool" football players! Good thing I am liked for the most part. I was super embarassed, so I get to class my left knee is throbbing and I have to teach. Luckily I have a student TA so I had her run to the office to get me a bandaid and some antiseptic. I took a good fall and my knees are skinned nothing major! If you did'nt know already kids are a hazard... they need to come with brake lights or a blinker:-) Anyway hope it gave you a laugh!</strong>The Shu'shttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07616764311972540928noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7562106687668002846.post-38385149990576035632008-10-10T14:59:00.000-07:002008-10-13T14:13:03.060-07:00Refined!<strong>Before I tell you about something I learned today I will give you an update on my health... so basically I have GERD and some of you are like what in the world is that?? In lay man's terms it is really bad acid reflux, only it makes me sooo nauseous! Anyway at least I am not dying and have started on some new meds so hopefully it will be under control soon! Thanks for all your prayers!</strong><br /><br /><strong></strong><br /><strong>Ok so every morning on my way to work I listen to Chuck Swindoll on the radio... I am so turning into my mom, she used to listen to this every morning when I was little. He is probably one of my most favorite speakers, I could listen to him all day. Anyhow he has been in the book of Daniel and today narrowed in on Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednigo... or for veggie tale lovers Rack, Shack and Benny! Well we all pretty much know the story of faith of these 3 fellows but Pastor Chuck said something profound: When they were thrown in the fiery furnace the only thing that the fire consumed was the ropes which bound them. That totally took me back... how profound! I have read that story so many times and I never saw that before! That is how God works, He wants us to experience freedom in the things that bind us or hold us back... but to get there will take REFINING which is what the fire or in our case trials represent! The refining period is soooo hard yet so rewarding! I know that personally I have failed alot of refining tests and allow the things of this world or the lies of the enemy bind me from the freedom the Lord has for me. Good thing the Lord allows do overs and will allow me to take that test over and over until I pass and get it right.... then we move onto the next. </strong><br /><strong>Lord, thank you that you never run out of grace to give and that you are always willing to re-teach until I get it right. Thank you for always seeing my potential and walking me through the fire even when I want to give up. Thank you for refining me even when it hurts. </strong>The Shu'shttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07616764311972540928noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7562106687668002846.post-8868998337978824732008-10-01T15:03:00.000-07:002008-10-02T12:10:27.576-07:00I'm Back!<span style="color:#000000;">Well I am back and again I realized it has been a while since I have blogged. I was looking around at some others blogs and realized that I am not the best at all this technology stuff. I don't know how to add pictures, and add fun stuff:( So when you look at my blog it is just gonna be boring! So updates let's see... well The Shu's are condo/home shopping who would've known? The market has pretty much dropped alot so for those looking to buy it's awesome, but if you were one of the crazy's who got in way over your heads then not so good for them! We are praying our way through it and asking the Lord to open the door if this is what He has for us if not then I KNOW He has a plan better than I can imagine! Oh ya the not so fun news... I have been having stomach pain and it has not been pleasant at all!! So I went to the doctor last week and he ran all kinds of tests, and yep still waiting on them apparently my health is not a priority for everyone, so I am waiting! The doctor told me it could be an ulcer, a bacteria.... he is not really sure! So in the meantime I will wait until they figure it out and hopefully am fine:) The school year has started for me and I am off and running in all directions... teaching is like a circus some days. All in all I love my job and I love my students and am looking forward to pouring into their lives! Andrew is doing very well and is the best husband ever:) All is all the Shu's are doing pretty good!!</span>The Shu'shttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07616764311972540928noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7562106687668002846.post-22625035024930044482008-08-18T15:55:00.000-07:002008-08-18T16:21:16.503-07:00Finally<strong>Hi All,</strong><br /><strong>So I noticed I haven't blogged since April... my where has the time gone? Well I decided to go back through my blogs and reread what I wrote. Wow, this has been quite the journey however I am not where I was then! Life is good... God is good- ALL the time! That has been my latest journey I have had to walk through. That was a question that was posed to me by Pastor Kurt in one of his sermons at Family Camp- by the way the best time ever...woo woo! It seriously took me back, not because I have never heard it before, but because I did'nt know if I believed that! I know that the Christianese answer would be "God is good can I get an Amen...," but it was the thing I spent the most time thinking about all week at family camp! It once again challenged my prayer time and I can honestly say my God is good ALL the time:) </strong><br /><strong>So many things have happened this summer that it has been quite crazy... first we went to celebrate our 6yr. wedding anniversary in vegas which was relaxing, then a few weeks later we left for a week of camping at the beach with our church family... seriously it was soooo much fun and I will forever have memories of D28 (our campsite), a few weeks later we took our Jr./Sr. High Youth to youth camp in the mountains that was some really good fun! Andrew was able to lead one of the boys into a relationship with Jesus...praise the Lord! That made the whole trip worth it.... my grandpa passed away- however Andrew and I got to lead him to the Lord 2 days before he passed! I was so humbled that the Lord chose us to do that! The funeral was beautiful and we had peace cause we knew he is with Jesus. My brother was rushed to the hospital due to an allergic reaction and it was super scary, we were there til like midnight- we are happy he was fine... we had an earthquake ya that's right 5.4!! It wasn't really that bad however being in the shower was definately not the highlight for me! We just got back from Texas visiting The Bullard Family... it was great fun! We saw and did so many things, but mostly it was just good to sit together in person with them. Andrew taught Gavin some wonderful phrases like... "Okie Dokie, which at first was dokie dokie" as well as "What up Homes." That's right Drew was teaching him gangsta talk:) This summer has been quite fun, busy and relaxing and I am gettin gready to go back and teach! I hope this has given you a little overview of what's been going on in the lives of The Shu's! I promise to update and blog more often:)</strong>The Shu'shttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07616764311972540928noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7562106687668002846.post-64628462721613154742008-04-15T14:34:00.000-07:002008-10-02T12:12:08.668-07:00It's Been So Long...<strong><span style="font-family:arial;">I realized that it has been so long since I have blogged... not for a particular reason just been super busy with moving in and getting back from DC trip. By the way I had sooo much fun on that trip, I know that I am crazy for going with 140 8th graders, but hey I love kids:) Anyway, we are doing great, we love our new place and have already had people over which is the ultimate to us. The Lord is sooo good... I have been reveling in His goodness and faithfulness. He has blessed us financially, he has blessed our marriage, he has blessed us with some of the best friends we could ever ask for... even those who decided to live far away! J/K:) He has given us clarity on what ministries He is launching us into full time, He is faithful in answering and just being who He is. Thank you Lord for Your continued faithfulness, thank you that You do what is best for us and not just what we want You to do. </span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">Last night I went to ladies coffee talk and what a neat time it was sharing with the ladies of the Warehouse... but the verse we spent time on has been on my heart. " I will bless the Lord who counsels me, even at night my heart instructs me. I know the Lord is always with me, I will not be shaken for He is righ beside me. No wonder my heart is filled with joy and my mouth shouts His praises! My body rests in safety. For You will not leave my soul among the dead or allow Your godly one to see the pit." Psalm 16:7-10</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;">What a neat promise the Lord gives us in that we can rest in Him because He is not far away but right beside us. The other really cool thing is that David the author is rehearsing his trust in the Lord. He knew that the enemy would be there to try and ensnare him, but premeditated or prayed up ahead of time to not let the enemy have a foothold. This hit me as I was reading this, how many times do I rehearse the things I fall short of. For me at times it is trust... well the only way to get rid of bad habits is to rehearse godly ones. After all David was a man after God's own heart and that didn't happen overnight, he too was human, which is truly comforting to me. Needless to say it was a great time!</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;">Alot of people have been asking now what with the baby stuff... well we were supposed to go to an appt. to meet with the invitro Dr., however bronchitis hit me really bad so that didn't happen. We have not had a chance to reschedule the appt. because we have been busy. We are just continuing to lift it up in prayer and we will know when the perfect time will be to move on with that. I have to say I have such a peace in who the Lord is and am ok where we are at the moment. The Lord is faithful and I know that we will not be disappointed! So continue to pray for us a miarcle would be the ultimate, but we are ok either direction we are led. Only because the Lord is "right beside us!" </span></strong>The Shu'shttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07616764311972540928noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7562106687668002846.post-52708879458736783032008-02-20T13:56:00.000-08:002008-02-20T14:12:51.181-08:00The Shu's are shipping out...Hello,<br />Well the majority of you know but in case you don't the Shubin's are moving... March 15th!! God is soooo awesome I cannot even praise Him enough these days, all I got to say is there is power in the name of Jesus. We have been spending much time these past few months taking down numbers of places to rent and it seemed like a dead end everywhere, so Friday I had hit the wall emotionally (poor Andrew)! I was crying and just discouraged, well we were celebrating Valentines day friday night cause Drew was in Chicago up til Thurs. (I know I am a detailed writer just bear with it) and all my joy was zapped for the day, and right there I said "We need to pray now!" So we did right there in the car the both of us, now I was never raised with the name it and claim it philosophy, however that night I was determined to do just that. So at the end of my prayer I said " In the name of Jesus I am asking that you move whatever is in the way and find us a place to live." We have been looking for months, and kid you not the next day we just so happened to find our way to a apartment complex in Placentia and they not only were in our price range but under what we set a limit at! I no longer under estimate what can be done in the name of Jesus... there is power in that name and we as Christians need to use it more than we do, incredible miracles happen in the name of Jesus. Anyway it was such a faith boosting experience, it was sooo cool. So we move March 15th if you want to help let Drew know, as I will be coming home from DC that night at 11:30! We are so excited and cannot wait to have you all over again:) <strong><span style="color:#993399;">" Seek first the Kingdom of God and His righteousness and all these things will be added unto you." Matthew 6:33</span></strong>The Shu'shttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07616764311972540928noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7562106687668002846.post-10990362251692375042008-02-12T13:02:00.000-08:002008-02-12T13:31:18.632-08:00Amazing GraceAmazing grace how sweet the sound... I love that song for so many reasons but the word I love best is GRACE! I have to say that the Lord has been so gracious to me...He has given me the grace to endure pain but not be crushed by it. He has renewed my strength and retored my joy, for the first time in a long time I feel free. I feel as if for 2 years i have carried so much pain and allowed the enemy to rob me of an abundant life that Jesus came to give, John 10:10. This trial that we have been going through is not over, but I know that Andrew and I are already victorious in Christ. I am amazed at how He uses us more me at times, but am overwhelmed with thankfulness that He wants me to partner in reaching others for the Kingdom. I am not gonna lie, there are so many things that we are up against that seem so impossible, but I'm standing on the promises of God and his faithfulness. There are still days my heart just aches for a baby, but it is in those times that it drives me to converse with my heavenly Father. He always reminds me that He has not forgotten me and that He is in the process of something so extraordinary, way beyond my comprehension. What an awesome God I serve, He is so loving and gracious. The other day I was posed the question "If the Lord never gave you a baby, would you still serve and love Me?" I knew that was the Lord cause I would never ask myself that:) I thought a minute and said "Yes Lord I would, it may be hard at times but I would have to trust that You know what You are doing." I am reminded of the conversation Jesus had with his disciples and Him posing the same question to them and them answering "Yes Lord where could we go, only You have the words of eternal life." That was and aha moment for them, but I see it as Jesus just asking them if He did nothing but save them from sin would they still love Him or would they not cause they weren't getting all the stuff they wanted. So I can say I had my aha moment as well, but I like the disciples am so sold out and totally in love with Jesus that there is no where else I would rather be. I know and stand in victory already that we will have children, there is no doubt in my mind!!<br />Jesus I love you so much... Thank you for your grace! The thing I am most thankful for is that you not only chasten the ones You love but chase them. Thank you for chasing me when my heart fought against you, thank you for being my good shepherd and being willing to go after me no matter the cost. Forgive me for the time I have wasted worrying and doubting You, please redeem my time and continue to use me. Lord You are so wonderful I cannot even describe it! You amaze me more every day!The Shu'shttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07616764311972540928noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7562106687668002846.post-32952382203990114092008-01-15T13:18:00.000-08:002008-01-15T13:41:20.580-08:00Faith Setting....Hi,<br />So cannot believe it but it is 2008 which means all kinds of things, however the biggest reminder is that I have been out of highschool for 10 years. I have not hit 30 yet but am starting to feel a little old. Anyway Andrew and I were talking about what goals we want to set this year and he was way ahead of me and had like 5, I have been sitting here pondering for at least 2 weeks. I ofcourse have personal goals and then we talked about "couple goals," but the spiritual goal is gonna be my biggie this year. So I decided that I would share it with all of you and then you could keep me accountable... Ok so my goal/change I want to see spiritually is BIG FAITH!! I know for sure I have lil' faith but I want it bigger than a mustard seed. The Shu's have been stretched most definately 2006-2007 so I figure 2008 it's time to start fresh and give it all I got. I want to put to test of how BIG my God is and just watch Him work. Thanks to Pastor Kurt who helped me see faith from a different angle said: at some point faith, God's timing and His perfect will all meet up... so here we are waiting on Him and anticipating what He will do. In the meantime before lil Shu's are running around, I am so excited to see how we will and are being used for the Kingdom. He is opening up many doors and using us like crazy and folks that's what it's all about to be about our Father's business. I know that is when I truly am the most joyful!! "Seek first the Kingdom of God and His righteousness and all these things will be added unto you." Matthew 6:33<br />Thank you Father for using me whether to touch a lost world or even those around me. Thank you that you take brokeness and hurt and turn it around for Your purpose. I pray that you would give me BIG Faith this year and that a year from now I will look back and be wowed at yet another journey we have taken together. Lord I want You to know that I am in this for the long haul whatever the cost as You give nothing short of the best. HELP ME to be content with all that You have for me and to be aware of the here and now Kingdom Assignment. Thank you for loving me!The Shu'shttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07616764311972540928noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7562106687668002846.post-13131912689825995422007-12-31T16:31:00.000-08:002007-12-31T17:02:33.959-08:00Time with Jesus...So yesterday I flew home from Texas and boy was it a long day of flying! The coolest part was that on the flight home after the long layover from Seattle to So. Cal.! So I read this book from cover to cover seeing that I had so much time, it was called "When God let's you down" thanks Bre for the donation. It was probably the best book I could have read at this time in my life. The guy who wrote it is a Pastor and he and his wife dealt with a similar situation as us Shu's:) I know that I was reading a book, however I felt like it was the Lord speaking directly to me and calming so many questions in my heart. I battle so much inside that it drives me crazy, but it gave me such a new perspective on the Lord and our struggles. <br />There are so many times that when we go through struggles we feel as if the Lord has abandoned us especially when things don't go according to "the plan" you know we all have them, but that would be totally contrary to His nature so I relearned:) I learned that the Father's nature will not allow Him to turn away when we go kicking and screaming, or as I like to call it shake my fist at God. His love is bound to His kids and the cross was not in vain, but out of DEEP love for His children. As I sit and read that I am teary eyed that He would love me so much even in the depths of my dark pain, or when I kick and scream. I also have learned that God is not a waster... so therfore my suffering is not a waste of time. The suffering we go through is usually time that the Lord is using to help direct us and shed some ropes that bind us, as He longs for His children to experience freedom, it also is a testimony of God's goodness and victory. I also learned that in those hard times it is the Lord teaching us hard truths that otherwise we would not have submitted to. I needed this time with Him on this long flight because He gently reminded me of certain truths I had replaced with myths about Him. On this flight I felt like no one was there but me and Him, I was just lost in who He is. After I was done reading I put my ipod on and just felt like crying (tears of joy) because I saw Him in a whole new light. I wanted to sing out loud but I am sure the other passengers would have been mad at me, so I praised Him in my heart. As I did that I looked out the window of the plane and I saw the stars so clear and the busy world beneath and I felt like I could see from God's perspective, from His view nothing is too big or overwhelming. He has this God thing completely handled:) So what is so hard about surrendering? It is trusting.... and so if at the end of my journey I learn how to do that better than He is right I did not suffer in vain and I was refined even more than before. There's a song by Mercy Me called "Bring the rain" and that's exactly how I feel right now, I feel freedom in saying that. ...Bring me joy, bring me peace, bring me the chance to be free bring me anything that brings You glory and I know there will be days when this life brings me pain but if that's what it takes to praise You Jesus bring the rain... Jesus I am so sorry that You have been the blame of the pain in my life I pray that I might redeem the time and bring you glory in all that I do!!The Shu'shttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07616764311972540928noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7562106687668002846.post-19234367363983015732007-12-12T13:48:00.000-08:002007-12-12T14:04:50.962-08:00Sweet Moment...<span style="font-family:Times New Roman;"><strong>You ever have those moments with Jesus that are so precious that just thinking about them bring tears to your eyes... Well last night was a memorable one for me. Andrew and I went to Bible study which was a good time of opening up God's Word and studying. I sometimes feel like I am two people in one body, like my heart is grieving but my spirit is joyful. You're probably thinking I am bi-polar right now, but that's how I was feeling last night. I am still emotional, but I felt joyful because I could sense the presence of the Lord- I only get these times every so often and duh it's when I need it the most. The best part about last night was when we got home Andrew and I were talking and I started to cry like I have been lately, but it was a different cry. It was one that drove me to my knees, there we knelt together just praying, praising and petitioning God together. It was so beautiful to me, I buried my face in my bed and for a brief moment it felt like the shoulder of Jesus. I could feel Him, I knew that He was right there with us. Now Andrew and I pray every night together, but not like last night, it was a "Sweet Moment" with Jesus. Andrew told me goodnight and fell asleep soon after, but I took a few minutes and just reveled in the moment. It's in these moments that all my doubts and fears seem so small and He is so big. In Bible study we were talking about having a child like faith and as I look back over my life I so long to be little because my faith was so strong. It reminds me of a song I used to sing in Sunday school... "My God is so BIG so strong and so mighty there's NOTHING my God cannot do." I so long to be there again, to where I don't question but just know that my Abba is BIG and there is NOTHING that He cannot do!!</strong></span>The Shu'shttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07616764311972540928noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7562106687668002846.post-47686803110825402462007-11-26T14:03:00.000-08:002007-11-26T14:35:35.870-08:00Hmmmm...<strong><span style="color:#cc66cc;">So you ever feel like Lord... I know I am on a journey but have no clue where this is going? Well that's exactly where we are right now. We feel like so many things in our life make no sense. We know that God has a plan and that He loves us and wants the best for us, but somehow those are'nt coming together at the moment. We also know that the bigger picture is that the Lord wants us to trust Him and that He is stretching our faith even beyond what we think is too much. So you must be sitting there thinking what is she rambling on about... well I have always been a journaler and I thought this would be a way for you to come along on our journey as you read what I journal. </span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#cc66cc;">So many of you know that we have been going through the infertility program for about a year now. It has been the most uphill emotional battle we have ever had to face. Thanks by the way to those of you who have been our support and love through this time. Anyway to say the least it has been anything but easy and it seems like everytime we make progress it is slowed down by something. So here's the latest news... We went into the our doctor just last Tuesday to get a review on the test panels they had just ran. We were expecting to go in and have them say everything looks good let's get on with the treatment. Well ofcourse that is not what happened and we were stunned at the news. The doctor pretty much told us that we had yet another hoop to jump through which would mean more testing on Andrew, the news from these tests will predict where we go from here. So I will keep you posted later on what it is we will be needing to do!! Please pray that whatever it is is fixable, we are running out of strength it seems.</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#666666;"><span style="color:#cc66cc;">All this to say it is a bitter sweet experience... on one hand we feel priviliged that the Lord would choose us to go through such an experience knowing that we would handle it well and Him be glorified, but in the other hand we ask sometimes why us Lord?? This can't be what you want for us, this isn't want we dreamed about. My dream since I was 16yrs. of age was to be a mommy and a great one at that. I didn't care what I had to go without as long as I could be with my children. I am not letting go of this dream and somehow we will be parents as the Lord gave us a desire for a reason, we just don't know the how yet!!</span> </span></strong><br /><div align="center"><strong><span style="color:#666666;"> </span><span style="color:#000000;">Lord Jesus we love you and trust you with our dreams and desires as hard as that is at times. We know that you love us and are walking with us through all we are faced with. Please give us the strength to continue in walking with you through this trial and may we be a blessing to you by the attitude of our hearts. Give us joy and peace no matter what... we know that your strength is made perfect in our weakness so in this may You shine through us even when some days we feel like giving up. Thank you for this trial (gulp) as this is what will be the force that drives us to our knees and full dependance on You. May you be glorified in all we do!! Amen</span></strong></div>The Shu'shttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07616764311972540928noreply@blogger.com4